“God is looking for people thru whom He can do the impossible. What a pity we plan only things we can do by ourselves” ~AW Tozer
What a pity indeed. It is not because I was a willing obedient servant, but rather that I was too exhausted, too raw, too broken, to resist any longer. If you’re a Star Trek fan you’ll get the reference….God as Borg; Resistance is Futile.
When He had shattered me, when I was ground to dust, demolished beyond recognition, with the salt from my own tears, I scrubbed away the shards of what was. There was no more of me. And in the absence, there was finally room for God.
In this season of my life, I am grateful that while I sought other things from God, those things were not His Plan. Where I sought Grace and Blessed Quietness, He poured in instead a warriors heart and a warrior spirit. I wanted peace; He wanted me to stir the waters. So He made me uncomfortable. I desired God to nurture my life, but we ought to be careful in our prayers; God will grant the desires of our hearts IF they align with His Will. His Ways are not our ways, however, and the lesson might just hurt. A LOT.
So, I invite to participate in, to witness the Evolution of a #HolyBadass. It will not always be pretty, but it will be beautiful.
Who am I? I was born a negro. I wanted nothing more than to write encouraging stories of hope and faith against all odds, and seeking joy, through all things.
I wanted nothing more than to be a “white glove Christian,” soft, unfailingly polite, subtle. I am NO such girl. While capable of great gentleness, I am inclined toward cerebral, questioning, and subversion.
I am a Spiritual Gangster
Originally the name of a yoga clothing line, this notion stunned me like a shot to the head. Captioning my faith calling and the way I felt God shaping my voice, I co-opted the phrase for my personal use. Reading the account of Jesus’ trial before Pontius Pilate where He was indicted for inciting riot, destabilizing the economy and attempting to overthrow the Roman government reminded me that Jesus was a Revolutionary. Christian Activist Bree Newsome who inspires me to braver action declared in a recent speech, “Jesus is one of the biggest agitators that ever lived…The only time Jesus was in the temple was when He’s flipping stuff over and stirring things up.”
The Image of an Omnipotent, Omniscient, Omnipresent God I envision may not be yours. My faith is Unceasing. Continual. Undeniable. Even as I question it